I feel good

Today I feel pretty good about myself, I'm fitting in both my size 2 jeans..... soon that will be a size 1 :)
So far I've been going to the gym 5 days a week and tonight I'm going to a weight training/cardio class for an hour. I figure if I do one intense hour a day that will make quite a difference. I'm trying to add Saturdays and then just go for a jog on Sundays. I need to get back to church though sometime. But I don't want to join a church right as we're moving again, that always sucks.
D's job fell through, they didn't have enough work to keep him going, so he's interviewing up north tomorrow, for more pay. The only problem is, the only place remotely close to where he works that we can afford to live is Corona and its way more inland, I'm so use to living close to the beach..... :'(

124lbs

Well, I've been stuck up and down between 126 and 128, I'm 124 totally empty and clothesless.
I feel ok about it, I feel more encouraged that I can get to 110 sometime before the summer's over. My only concern is how do I maintain it once I get there? I feel like it will be this constant struggle.
I hate when D brings home Jack in the Box... so tempting, but I didn't eat it, instead today 2/3 bag of pop corn.
I did an 50 min of cardio and some glute machines. My guess is about 500 calories burned today. I'm just really trying to pace myself and not get out of control which is what I was last week..... D's b-day, too many frosting-less cupcakes I binged on :'(

I'm going to post my weight in two weeks and hopefully I should be around 123 or 122.

We might be moving up to the LA area cuz he has a job offer.... that'll be different.

Not much to tell...

Went running this morning, not very far though. I'll run more tomorrow. I have to seriously restrict this week cuz I've been between 125 and 126 for weeks now and I have to start losing again.
Grrrr I hate this..... I WILL LOSE WEIGHT THIS WEEK

I want ta smoke.....

SO BAD RIGHT NOW!!!!! These fake ones aren't doing the trick :''''(

Today is blah

So, today is one of those really boring, not much to do types. I really want to workout today, but somehow I don't have the energy/motivation. I really wanted to tan today, but it wasn't hot enough. Tomorrow we're going to the beach, it'll be a nice excuse not to eat most of the day. Tomorrow, I'm going to try to stay under 300 and today I've eaten a lot (1000) but no more, just lots of water and sleep. I need to get rid of the sinus headache I've had for days now and keep my mind off of food since I'm going to start my period soon :(
Grrrr.... water weight.... fun.

Job interview for D

Yay! So my hubby has one job offer and another interview, so our hardwork is finally paying off, I also have sort of an in process interview with a company offering me a good amount of money and *fingers crossed* I'll get it and this job will also enable me to do online school which will be lovely so I can finish my degree.

I'm still hovering at the same weight, haven't really lost any for about a week or so. Hopefully by the end of next week I can be down a pound or so. I'm trying to slow down a bit on the weight loss thing so as to not get so starving that I wind up binging. So, over all I'm feeling better about myself and my situation.

Lets see... food I've eaten today... 1 yogurt, 1 oat meal packet, couple bites of mac and cheese, and a couple bites of orange chicken = 800 (probably less than that though)

I've been smoking a crap load of those vapor cigs and that has really hindered my appetite lately, I can't even think about eating right now..... I'm just not even hungry at all.

I've also started taking my ephedra diet pills again, 3 a day, tomorrow I'm going to try to up it to 4 a day.
I haven't felt much like exercising though, just not a whole bunch of energy and until my lungs heal up from smoking regular smokes (which I've since quit) I don't think I'll have the energy I need, but when I do I plan to take up running again.

Food is pointless

So I've come to the conclusion that really all food does is satisfy this temporary desire for taste and makes you feel good for the few minutes you're enjoying, but the second you're done eating you just feel like shit and so guilty that what the hell is the point in eating? I mean other than the few calories one needs to survive it's just a vice to most. The key is to find enjoyment in other things, more fulfilling things. I hate food. All it does is make us fat and gross and the enjoyment is so temporary. Have you ever noticed when you watch your favorite shows or movies how little you actually see the characters eat, if ever? They have such busy lives that are focused on other things. Ha ha, well that's what I was pondering...