Sad Day

   My tummy is totally growling and I really have not had that much to eat today. I'm going to wait till like a week after my period is over and then weigh and see if the whole water weight thing is gone. I'm really not trying to lose, just maintain 127 and I'll get into my strict losing this weekend. Although this whole shity troubled marriage thing is doing a great job of getting me depressed and therefore I have no appetite :)

I hate periods

   So, I have not had a period in two months and I finally thought that maybe I was losing enough weight that I was going to stop having them... guess not. I also hate all the water weight/bloatiness that shows up on the damn scale when this happens too. Depressing. I think I'm going to continue to fast today, just coffee and MAYBE egg drop soup which is all of 60 calories. Sounds like a good plan. I really want to be able to drop 8lbs by the time I see my husband.

What I ate so far today

Today, I had coffee :) That's it :)

   My teeth hurt so bad that I might as well not eat anyway, I just put my retainer in from like two years ago that I never wear and I guess my teeth have shifted.... A LOT! Hahahaha.
   Still no word from my husband. How immature do you have to be to not respect that fact that you have a wife and answer her calls? Lame.... well I gave D plenty of opportunities to call/text me back yesterday and now I'm over talking to him, so if he comes to the realization that he does want to talk before next month is over, he'll have to do it all on my voice mail :)
   Today I'm going to see that Valentine's Day movie with my mom... I know its going to be a cute flick, but I'm pretty sure I'm going to feel like sh*t from all the lovey dovey crap that I can't experience... oh well... I've come to the conclusion that life is a sh*t fest and nothing more. I seriously can't wait to die and go to heaven... geez who wishes that?! I guess f*cked up people like me.