Typical Morning

I have the worst period known to women today, horrid. I seriously can't wait till I'm too skinny to even get periods. I am like stuck at 128lbs and can't get under that, its so frustrating. At 5'-9" I want nothing more than to weigh 110lbs soaking wet. 18 more to go obviously. God that sounds like so much weight, I had no idea I was such a fatty. I use to weigh 140... hahaha fat n' happy newly wed bliss... how tragicaly disgusting. Never again, I'd rather die than weigh a single pound over 130. My theory is that if you eat a normal sized breakfast (normal being what non-disordered people would eat on a saturday morning, not resaurant sized i.e. 4 scrambled egg whites, 8oz trop 50 oj, and 4 pieces of turkey baccon) then your metabolism will be boost for the day enabling one to sustain a pretty good workout and be full for the rest of the day and then maybe just a snack before bed.
I've got to get off this smoking kick, there are so many wonderful things about smoking but the lung cancer thing really puts a damper on all that. I've been wanting to try those electronic cigarettes, but they are a bit pricey and being that my hubby and I are living off unemployment checks from North Carolina I shouldn't even really be smoking at all. In the future if I still struggle I'll venture out and try those lil water vapor ones :) In the meantime, my hubby needs to have his buddy go onto base and get me a shit load of nicorette for free... that should keep me sane for a little while.